I’ve been asking myself a little bit lately…“What do I want?” Do you ever ask yourself that? I’m not really talking about what you want in this moment or in the next couple of days. I mean…what do you want overall?

Success? Money? Fame? Significance? Freedom? Love? Connections? To be a celebrity?

What do you want? I feel like I really needed to answer that question lately and I think I know my answer.

I want love. I want complete and perfect love. I want to feel valued and appreciated. I want to be unconditionally accepted. I want to feel included. I want to be consumed by the freedom that comes from love.

This desire of mine has been masked behind a lot of things. I want to be in this or that meeting. I want to have this or that opportunity. I want to be accepted by those people and to be included with that crowd. I want lots of popularity and recognition. Why?

The bottom line is that I want perfect love. I haven’t always sought that in the right places but that’s what I want.

God has been showing me lately that what I most deeply want is what he most essentially is. What I most deeply want is what he most essentially is.

This is so important to understand. Much of the pain and difficulty that I’ve experienced over the years has come from resisting what God has for me. Quite often however, the reason that I’ve resisted him is because I’ve thought that what he has is not what I most essentially want. The more that I realize that what I most deeply want is what he’s most essentially about, the more I will experience his best for my life.

I could talk about this more but I’ll stop there. What do you most deeply want? Does that coincide or conflict with what God most essentially is?