Revelation 3:20 says, “²⁰ Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me.”

Perhaps for some of us the deal is that we simply don’t hear him knocking and that feeling is something to explore. I would say that many of us however, probably have some sense that God is pursuing relationship with us. As I think about the different areas of my life, I can see that God wants more of my heart. I’ve let him in overall but there are still places that I would prefer he not go.

When it comes to certain areas of rejection and hurt, I don’t want to open the door. His invitation to come and eat with us means intimate fellowship. It means that he wants close relationship with us which will inevitably lead to our healing.

Just to be perfectly honest though, I don’t want to open the door sometimes. Even with everything Jesus has done for me, I still occasionally doubt his intentions. I start to think that he is going to mess everything up in my life and I would just prefer to keep him out. In my head I know that this is not true but my heart is still learning how to trust him.

My primary vision for 2013 when it comes to my relationship with God is to create an open door policy with him. I want him to have total access to every area of my life without even having to knock. I want that door open all the time because I don’t want to exclude myself from fellowship with my Creator. Right now however, this is a daily decision.

Do I want to open the door today? Sort of. I’m generally convinced that he has my best interest at heart but there is that guarded side of my personality that isn’t quite so sure. These are things that I need to continually address but at least I have taken the first step by being honest about it.

What about you? Do you have an open door policy when it comes to your relationship with God? If not, why not? Is trust easy or hard for you? Do you imagine God as loving or judgmental and cruel? Why?