One of my favorite songs growing up was Here I Go Again by Whitesnake. I remember the first time I drove by myself without an adult in the car. It was my dad’s Jeep Grand  Cherokee Loredo and I got to drive it by myself around town. As I was driving, Here I Go Again came on the radio and I was pretty certain the car was going to take flight!! I felt like I was the master of the universe!

Something about that song felt like my theme song. “Here I go again on my own. Going down the only road I’ve ever know . Like a drifter I was born to walk alone….” I loved that. Me against the world. I don’t need anyone or anything. I am the master of my destiny and nothing… nothing is going to get in my way.

Now I’m a follower of Christ and I am not the master of my destiny. I have given my heart to Christ and he is the ruler of my life. Not only is my life about a relationship with God but its also about relationships with others. This is still tough for me.

There is a strong part of me that wants to keep God and other people out of my life. Something in me still wants the control and doesn’t want to be hurt…ever.

Ultimately I want to have an open heart to God and others because that is where life is. But it also feels like risk. When you really think about it though, the real risk is in keeping your heart closed to all the love of God and others out of pride and fear.

Here I go again on my own… not anymore.

Where are you on this? Does it feel like you’re on your own? It doesn’t have to be that way.